What Will People Think?

This thought bothers me a bit, but as time goes on, I care less.

The family reunion is coming up. We won't be going. I'm sure that my son and my mother will spend a great deal of time trashing me to anyone who will listen and that makes me angry.

What I can't help but wonder about is, will anyone stand up for me? Will anyone say "gee, I've known your mother her whole life and that sure doesn't sound like something she'd do."

I assume none of the rest of the family, including my brother, know what happened. Certainly none of them know my side of the story.

I actually do care about a couple of my relatives and I've been tempted to email them and just say "you're going to hear some stuff about me. I hope you'll think about who I am and how I've acted my whole life before you decide if it's true or not" but then I decided that I don't want to engage with any of them over any of it. Is that cowardly? I hope not. Mostly, I just don't want to give any more energy to this issue.

But still, it would be nice to think that at least one person might say a tiny peep in support of me. But I'm not holding my breath.